Anton’s documentary airs tonight (Photos: BBC/ITV)
Anton Ferdinand has admitted his new documentary has been “therapeutic” and helped him deal with issues stemming from his mother’s death.
The retired sportsman’s mum Janice St. Ford died in 2017, and he has opened up on how the experience of working on his BBC film Football, Racism and Me gave him clarity on a wide range of issues.
Appearing on BBC Breakfast this week, he explained: ‘I never went into this, doing a documentary – we were approached two years ago, and I never went into this documentary thinking it was going to be therapeutic for me.
‘But it actually has been, I have now learned so much about myself.
‘I have learned things that were bothering me – since my mother passed away, there’s been times where I haven’t slept properly for certain reasons.
‘Watching the documentary allowed me to really understand why that was. Stuff was in the back of my mind, they weren’t at the forefront of my mind, they were subconsciously there.
‘Being able to watch the documentary allowed me to bring these subconscious thoughts from the back of my head to the front so I was able to deal with them. It’s been a very therapeutic period for myself.’
The documentary is airing on BBC One tonight, and it will see Anton looking back at the repercussions of a Premier League racism row in October 2011.
Former Chelsea captain Terry was found guilty by the FA, but a court of law reached a different conclusion (Photo by Shaun Botterill/Getty Images)
The following year, the Football Association found John Terry guilty of using racially abusive language towards him during a game, as the former international was stripped of the England captaincy, banned for four games and fined £220,000.
Terry had previously been found not guilty by a court of law.
The judge said: ‘The prosecution evidence as to what was said by Mr Ferdinand at this point is not strong. It is therefore possible that what he [Mr Terry] said was not intended as an insult, but rather as a challenge to what he believed had been said to him.’
Meanwhile, in the documentary, Anton admits his mother was the only one who ‘could have stopped’ him from confronting Terry after the incident.
He says: ‘She was the only person that could have stopped me. She said: “I know what you want to do, but now’s not the time.” ‘
Anton Ferdinand: Football, Racism and Me airs Monday night at 9pm on BBC One.
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